[came across this from 5 months back. and it always brings me back to who i wanna be amidst the clutter of the storm. recalibration, refresh, reduce. let’s go.]

so here goes: i wanna be the girl that radiates from the inside out. one who has been through much, and will go through much more, but one who will take life’s lessons and weave it into a beautiful gown to wear and show the world what i’ve learned.

i wanna be the girl who is beautiful and pure, the one who causes guys and girls to do double-takes, not just cos i’m pretty or dress well or smell nice (although all those 3 should be me too) but because of an inner magnet that draws people.. that inner magnet which is my intimacy with God.

i wanna be the girl who has long flowy hair, straight severe bob, messy outtabed hair, anything and everything i feel like for the season. i wanna be the girl with flowers in my hair all the time.

i wanna wear flowy dresses and skirts which never end. i wanna wear prints and loud colours, black statement pieces and simple cream things. i wanna be the girl who always has pretty accessories, but doesn’t fall victim to the comfort of hiding behind them.

i wanna be the girl who has big dreams and big passions and who has the guts to carry them out. i wanna be the girl who will always love, always be filled with the joy of the Lord, always be giving, generous, selfless and hopeful. i wanna be the girl who never tires. the one who always gives but always receives. the girl who never lets life or status quo get her down.

i wanna be the girlfriend who is always supportive, never angry, never boastful or prideful. i wanna be the girlfriend who will always be there, never be too demanding, always be spontaneous and surprising, one who will fight for romance and never let the fire die out. i wanna be the girlfriend who takes your breath away, who makes you weak in the knees, who makes you feel like you’re young again, yet makes you want to be a better man. i wanna be the girlfriend who eventually becomes your wife/domestic goddess/ milf (cos being hot is still necessary).

i wanna be the girl who is also a woman.

i want to never forget how to have fun or be sexy. i want to be fun, adventurous, daring, new, refreshed, energized, yet determined, hardworking, brave, risk-taking, stiletto-wearing, power office lady, womanly mother, loving wife, caring daughter, generous missionary, loyal friend, passionate lover of God.

i want to never forget to accept compliments and to give them out, to never forget to exercise to take care of myself for me and for my husband. i want to never forget how to ninja out of the house for icecream/wanton mee with my daddy. i want to never forget how to paint my momma’s nails. i want to never forget the importance of sitting at God’s feet and simply loving Him. and more. but its 2am and i’m sleepy. there is so much i wanna do/be.

God help me. help me be that woman You’ve set me apart to be.